Becoming a mother seems to have caused many of my friends, as well as myself, to become more anxious, in general. I guess it’s inevitable; you’re suddenly in charge of another human being. Everything becomes your responsibility; what they eat, what they learn, how they act, and absolutely everything in between. You are that person’s whole world (for a while, at least) and that’s a lot of pressure and obligation. However, for those of us who suffered with anxiety prior to become parents, well, the new mama experience is even more intense.
There are struggles only mama’s with anxiety can understand; struggles that are pretty universal for all parents, but seem far more difficult when you’re also battling anxiety; struggles that make our self-doubt and fear all the more intrusive. Sadly, when those struggles present themselves (sometimes, on a daily basis) anxiety can go from being a small part of your parenting experience, to being one of the things that define it.
I guess I was always prone to worrying, but never categorised or identified myself as anxious until my daughter was born. After she came into the world, I began to have all sorts of fears pop into my head and to the point that they were impacting my ability to get through day-to-day life. Simple tasks that other mothers appeared to have no problem accomplishing, became huge challenges for me.
It’s important to note that anxiety looks and acts differently to different people, but when it comes to anxiety and being a mama, there seem to be certain experiences and moments that can trigger anxiety for those of us who are predisposed to it.